Cleaning Out My Closest

Have you ever had a moment when you think about all the guys you dated? For example, every person especially girls think about our last ex. It's a form of cleaning out our closet but in our memory. It's like that song "I'm cleaning out my closet". You first think about your first love and think how that will be if you would still be dating him or her for guys. Then you think about your second love, and then keep thinking about all of them. Later on the day or week you start thinking "why didn't we last". Some of do remember but then there are other relationships that you're partener dumped you. After a while of thinking all of that, you start to wonder why he or she dumped me. I wanna know what I did wrong to cause us break up. Majority of us would ask our ex but in reality we won't. We don't know how to ask. For example, when I was dating this American, he dump me after 4 months. During the breakup I asked him what did I do wrong to cause this breakup? Of course he said it was him not me. Then he said it was the distance and I don't feel the love I felt for you after a while. It's hard for us to understand maybe they weren't the one or maybe I should change that about myself. It's not easy but if we do ask our ex. We should change that fir our next relationship.

Quote of the day

"This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, somg go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babve, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."
— Marilyn Monroe

Fear

Ever since we were kids our parents would tell us "you could be whatever you want to be", some of us would say "I want to be a singer, actor, even be the president of United States of America". Over the years we've lost the innocence, the cute smiles, even the sparkle of our eyes. We forget our dream in life. We become afraid of taking charge in our life, being spontaneous in life, even take risk. Teenage girls are afraid of telling someone I love you or being dump one day. Teenage boys are afraid of being a pussy guy or have your girlfriend cheating on you. Our parents and humanity teach us to be afraid in life. It makes us cowards. Now I may sound like I'm telling you to jump off a cliff if you're afraid of heights. I'm just saying take a chance in life. If you're single and really like a girl or boy just tell him. If you don't want to be with a person tell them but be specific enough and gentle. Fear becomes you if you let it in.

Second Chances

Second chances can be risky. When you love someone so much, you sometimes forgive them for all their mistakes. When we were young our mothers, teachers, aunts, even God gives us second chances. We sometimes take it for granted. We don't realize the mistake we've made until it's just too late. You live only one life. In this lifetime there are people who love us incredibly, they are the people who we should hold on to until we die. There are other people who are just plain dumb. They don't realize what kind of girl or guy you are. They don't know that you complete them in one form until they date or finally see you're meant to be with that person. When they finally realize we either are in a relationship or moved on in our life. I know I might sound like a old person or a girl that seen too many movies and is desperate for love, but it's true. We all are looking for someone that's compatible with us. A person who doesn't care at how you look without makeup in the morning, who laughs at your stupidity, who looks at you like the first time you met each other. Maybe that person is your best friend or someone that you've been with. If you broke up with the greatest person you have ever been with hope to God she or he wants you back. If that person made you laugh, comfortable, and sees you like the man or woman you are let me tell you you were stupid to let her or him go. But if you are still with that person hold on to them and talk about your relationship and give your love a second chance. Hey it's valentine's day. You might never know what Cupid has for you tonight.

All We Need Is Friends...

        Sometimes a girl just needs her best friends to back you up. When you just broke up with the man you thought was the one, you will always need your friends to be there. Sure they can be very annoying when they say"oh god just get over it" and sometimes don't understand what you're going through most of the time. But in reality their your voice of reason. They tell you things that you have been trying to tell youself for the past week or so. For instance, when I broke up with the guy who I truly loved and spent weeks crying for him. When I went back to school, they told me things I never imagine they would say. It was hard to get pass that phase of my life. If I didn't have them, I truly don't know what I would do without them. Now if you're still with your man and talk about him none stop. Your friends will be happy for you even though they know he might not be the right guy for you. Friends are a part of who you are cause you can relate to them in each different ways. My friend Lisa loves to shop and she can make your ordinary uniform to a fashion statement. Jessica the type of friend you can take her to a car show just to make fun of Americans (sorry). Lenora the mom type and a great listener. Denie the one who just stares at you and speak her mind without worrying what you said. In my opinion these are the type of friends you might need or who knows probably another type. They are there for you when you need them just like you're there when they need you.

Ghosts from the Past

                Have you ever received a text, email, or even a phone call from one of your exes or old friends that you wish you could forget about? Today a very old friend of mine who I dated once, found me in facebook to find out what I was up to. He wrote to me asking me questions about my love life, school and my old boyfriend Tom. They were best friends, the kind that would do stupid things just for fun. He asked if I was still with him trying to get information to see if I was available for him. Of course I let him in with all the glory details. No I'm single recently, yeah that happened 7 years ago, and the famous one really we dated. After all the messages and gossips we caught up to. He asks me if I'm still single and ready to mingle. LOL. In this moment you are probably thinking maybe "I should date him" but in reality you don't want to. You want a man who can support you in every way possible. Who treats you like a princess or better a queen. You don't need a man who just wants to date you cause you're pretty. Once you are single men start popping out of no where. They can pop from school to technology. If you want to date an old friend of yours, you guys will probably have nothing in common. You've out grown from the immaturity and things you used to do. Its a lifestyle that all us women done for many years. If you want talk to the guy but don't date him. You might never know if he can be the one guy that can truly mess you up. Have many friends not many boyfriends like my mother always says.

Four letters, One word, Eternity of Pain and Happiness

           Love.What is love really? When we were little kids, we would watch movies, tv shows, and even read books about love. Snow White for example, only had 90 minutes to find her Prince Charming. All she had to do was sing and eat a poison apple to find her Prince Charming once again. How am I suppose to know about love? If my family has bad luck with love ever since my great grandparents time. Maybe it happened earlier. Who can say that I'll be able to find the man who should be the man or husband in my life. My parents are divorce and I don't want to be divorce too. How am I suppose to find someone when I hardly have role models who last in a relationship? Dear Lord, find me a good man.